Moving Toward Spring

In January and February, I yearn for the days of my youth, when magick was a lighthearted affair. It was always a serious subject matter, but it carried a shale like-quality, a crust that I carefully chipped away at to uncover the layers of beauty beneath. Born under the auspices of certain planets, stars and the Sun, my Moon was a river of emotion beneath, a powerful flow of intuition and vision that seeped into my learned understanding of my parents’ Diety. This was a god that I couldn’t understand in my naiveté. My own natural world was suppressed by the words in the Great Book of that God, interpreted by men to shun the talents and abilities of women. My father knew I was a wytch; he told me so. He knew I carried strong magick and in his own world I needed to be saved from it—on a daily basis. So I hid that Light under the bushel of oppression, spending hours and days alone in the woods behind our house. There was my Temple, my true place of worship. There was the place I first learned the ways of magick.

I gave my Sundays to their brick and mortar buildings, their Bride of God, the church. Within it I was allowed the expression of music, those glorious hymns that I still remember and catch myself humming to this day. Captured within the melodies is a connection to divinity that reaches deeper, stretches farther than the words of their, or any, religion. Music is non-denominational–once stripped of our own attachments. Its magick runs deep and crosses worlds, if only we listen with the heart, and sing from the soul. That was a gift that I lifted from the ashes of my bitter childhood. Taking the music into my Temple, I sang to the spirit of the land, my offering of thanks for the nurturing embrace of leafy bowers that protected a young girl from the harshness that surrounded her.

The leafy bowers are metaphorical this time of year, and in this part of the US, and I miss them. Someone said that Winter is the only season that shows the human condition. Barren and cold, the landscape reminds me of my mortality and is reflected in the silver in my hair. My inner world is active, but it becomes tiresome without the balance of connections to the warm breezes and green spirit, and I become restless. During the next seven days, I will be preparing for the celebration of the waxing light. I will transform that restless energy into magick as I sweep, polish and wash. And I will stand beneath the bare bones of the trees in the woods and sing to the spirit of the land as I light a brand new candle, and call forth the magick of my youth that still runs within my veins. Older and wiser, the passage of time brings me full circle, back to the Light.

Imbolc/Candlemas

“Upon the earth, the ice and snow remained, and the people suffered through the frozen night, but now a change had come, for when they looked upon the Sun, each day was longer than the last. No longer did the darkness rule, and within their hearts, they began to know hope. There was rejoicing throughout the land as at last the long Winter approached its end.”

Once upon a time, before calendars and timepieces ruled our lives, people lived according to the moon, the sun and the seasons. During Spring, the Great Mother is young and fresh, blossoming with hope and the dimness of Winter becomes a memory. The days grow longer and crops begin to grow with the increasing light. The peak of summer, the Longest Day is celebrated with joy. Harvest time follows and as the days begin to grow shorter, they gathered the bounty, beginning to prepare for the coming cold. When once the chill winds begin to blow, they gathered together before the hearth fire and shared their summer memories. The larders were full, and the time of resting was upon them once again.

Today we fill the pantry and refrigerator from the grocery store all year long. Many people supplement their groceries with the harvest of their own gardens, but we are no longer dependent on the cycle of the seasons, the weather conditions and a myriad of other factors for our immediate source of sustenance. During the hot summer, or the coldest winter, we have the opportunity to run to the market and get fresh meat and vegetables. And even though we grow sick and tired of winter, it no longer threatens our lives in the same way.

What used to be a physical necessity, at least for most people in industrialized nations, is now focused on the emotional and spiritual. People of all religions still pray for prosperity, bountiful harvest, and the return of the Light. We are dependent on the ebb and flow of the Moon and Sun to regulate and balance the physical. And Light and Dark, summer and winter, play an important role in our spiritual lives as well.

Summer is a time of external expression. Barbecues with family, planting and keeping the garden, or joining together in synagogue or circle to share in the celebration of life. When it is winter dark and winter cold, it is a time of resting and going within. And as much as we know from technology that spring will follow winter, the cellular fear of the dark inhabits us all, that it might just be winter forever. So we once again gather together to work with the gods to usher in the changing of the seasons.

Lupercalia to the Romans, Imbolc to the Celts, and Candlemas to the Christians, February 2 marks the time of the Young Mother, the Goddess who has given birth to the Sun/Son. “It is the Feast of the Waxing Light. What was born at Winter Solstice begins to manifest, and we who were midwives to the infant year; now see the child Sun grow strong as the days grow longer. This is the time of individuality, beginnings, inspiration, the growing year, returning light, a festival of purification, chastity, the magick of a new fire and life force, the return from the Underworld, the Sun child nurses at the mother’s breast, the Crone retreats from Her reign, a time of creativity, healing, inward strength, potentiality, awakenings, meditation, and contemplations.”

It is a time of hope.

At this time of year, my first thoughts go to my garden. It is a reflection of the changing cycles of the year. During the time of growth, I sense the energy ebbing and flowing inside the plants. The Dark Moon draws the life force into the roots, nurturing and feeding the foundation in the darkness beneath the soil. The Full Moon draws that same Earth/Mother energy into the tops of the plants to produce flowers and then seeds, which are offered to us as the promise for the future.

Even though the days are getting longer, we are still within the Dark of the Year, and those promises, dropped as seeds into the soil in the fall, are still gestating beneath the scant winter snows that remain. It is a time of purification and cleansing, preparing for the coming Light for all of Nature.

As I notice that I begin thinking more and more about my small garden plot, I recognize that the nights have grown shorter, and the Southern Sun is just a little higher in the sky. If I pay attention to the hints from beyond the Hedge, I can almost smell the coming spring on the breezes that are still very chilly. And usually very near the date on the calendar that marks this Sabbat, I hear the young Goddess whisper in the early morning hours, “It’s time.” So I step into my grubby boots and with winter coat and gloves I gather my garden tools and begin cleaning the remains of winter from my wytches’ garden. Thoughtfully and very carefully, I clean the debris, piling sticks into the large fire ring that waits behind the old pine. The remaining lavender stems and mugwort rest on the top. Occasionally, depending on the temperatures, I catch a glimpse of the tiny crocus that are reaching for the sun and leave a tender covering of leaves to protect them.

Having cleaned out closets, drawers and my own personal debris during the previous week or so, I gather these things together and take them to the local goodwill. Purification and cleansing, remember? After returning home, I work on the final cleansing of my home. I wash my sheets with a touch of lavender oil. Sweeping the floors with intent, I banish the outworn to make way for new life. Wiping away the dust, I purify my personal space in honor of the Goddess.

The last of the vegetable soup that was canned the previous fall goes on the stove to simmer. Returning to the bonfire, I light the remnants of winter’s destruction, and as I gaze into the fire and smell the lavender scent, I offer my thanks, watching them float on the smoke to the heavens and pray that the Goddess will renew and recycle the leftovers and turn the destruction into hope.

After a final cleanse, a long luxurious bath, I pull out my Tarot, and sit down to the delicious aroma of the Fall Stew that fills the kitchen.

“From Mountain and Stream, from forest and field,
From the fertile Earth’s nourishing yield
I now partake of Divine Energy.
May it nourish and fulfill me that I may nourish and fulfill my world.”

Pulling the Star card from the Tarot deck, I ponder the meaning and symbology. The Star card is a card of hope for the future. Linked with the sign of Aquarius, it’s a watery card and the beautiful maiden that pours water from her pitcher into a stream and onto the Land is preparing for the future, watering seeds to grow in the spring, and refilling the stream so that those who are thirst may drink. She tells me that although we are still in the last throes of winter, spring will come.

I have prepared for the coming Light and made way for the blessings to come. Looking forward to longer days and warmer lights, I am grateful for making it through yet another winter.

©Selena Wolff

 

 

 

Ahhh…derecho?

My last days at the greenhouse for the summer season were stinking HOT! After the big blow of 2012, the straight line winds clocked at 89, and the searing 104 degree temps, I am so ready for a siesta. That’s one hundred and four degrees in NW Ohio. O. My. Stars.  From Wikipedia***

A derecho (play /dəˈr/; Spanish pronunciation: [deˈɾetʃo]; day-RAY-cho) is a widespread, long-lived, straight-line windstorm that is associated with a fast-moving band of severe thunderstorms. Generally, derechos are convection-induced and take on a bow echo form of squall line, forming in an area of divergence in the upper levels of the troposphere, within a region of low-level warm air advection and rich low-level moisture. They travel quickly in the direction of movement of their associated storms, similar to an outflow boundary (gust front), except that the wind is sustained and increases in strength behind the front, generally exceeding hurricane-force. A warm-weather phenomenon, derechos occur mostly in summer, especially during June and July in the Northern Hemisphere, within areas of moderately strong instability and moderately strong vertical wind shear. They may occur at any time of the year and occur as frequently at night as during the daylight hours.

This storm tore up my little Midwestern town. Many people were without power for 6 days. I was lucky and only had to deal with three days without my guilty pleasure-air conditioning. We were lucky and had no damage.

Mother Nature has a mighty hand and I am reminded of her power when I see this:

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is just one of hundreds of trees that were shredded, had tops blown off, or completely uprooted by the powerful winds of June 29.

After driving around to help friends and neighbors and seeing the devastation, I come away with the renewed awareness of the tenuous hold we have on “normal”. I have never been one to put too much faith in ‘normal’, believing instead that each of us has a divine destiny and although they differ, all paths lead in the same direction. But this is the year that life may be altered on December 21 and watching the climate changes, freaky weather, and the atrocities that humans heap on each other, I begin to wonder if we don’t have some kind of tilt coming, a ‘hump day’ so to speak, when enough of us are ready for change to make the change happen.

That’s a good thing, if the majority is ready for peace. But what if it tilts the other way? What if the majority of us is tired of our neighbors eccentricities, our governments’ rants, our dying planet?  What if….?

I am grateful for ice cream, grandchildren’s messy kisses, friends that stick by me. What are you grateful for? What will you do on December 21, 2012? What majority do you belong to?

 

 

 

 

 

Going to the Mountain

A lot has been happening…lots of changes, all good! I went to visit my daughter for a few days in North Carolina, then on to visit my spiritual sister in western NC. Loved it so much I took my partner to see it; it looks like we may have found our new home! Exciting and scary.

Since we are in the Growing Tide (Spring Crossroads to Summer Solstice) I am focusing my thoughts and actions towards manifesting the perfect home in Black Mountain. When trying to produce such a complex thing, it takes a lot of visualization and clear thinking to let the gods know exactly what we are looking for. Size, cost, location; all are important to me. My partner picked the name from the map, saying it sounded good. She repeated it several times during our travels, unwittingly answering a subtle call from this little town outside of Asheville. So we drove there on a beautiful spring morning and were both instantly in love.

We toured the town and now have a good grip on the energy and vitality of the land. Stopping at a little bistro for lunch, our waitress just ‘happened’ to have recently moved there and during our conversation we discovered several options for finding a house. These little synchronicities are so important in following your bliss. Flowing with the river, dipping into the magickal realm and listening closely for clues is the secret to manifestation. It felt right, and so I did my part and set the ball in motion, so to speak. With realtors phone numbers, pictures, receipt from the bistro, and a sprig of dogwood laying on my altar, I let go and let the powers that be do their thing.

Moving is a very big deal, as most people know, especially when I am beyond the hump in my years. But the advantage of being older is that my faith is stronger. Years of experience  have taught me that allowing things to happen in due course is the best way to find a peaceful path. So! I am slowing packing, still letting go of unnecessary possessions, and waiting with joy for the next clue!

Many Blessings on the Path!

As Above, So Below

The February sun, rising toward spring, warmed my face – just as the cold winds of winter struggled at my back. They say March comes in like a lion. If that is true, then March is here early. We’ve had Wind advisories for the last two days, and any step outside warrants a firm grip and solid stance to avoid the unladylike acrobatics that precede the tumble that I’ve been able to avoid this winter.

Walking Diesel, we both held out noses high in the early spring air, he sniffing for the latest passage of one of the neighborhood dogs, while I imagined green and growing things filling the air with hope.

I have a lot of hope this year. Something amazing has happened to my attitude. Generally a dark and moody old lady, I have found a renewed sense of life. Nothing exotic or frenetic; zen might be a better way to describe it. If you recall, I mentioned painting my bedroom a couple of weeks ago. I painted it a lovely shade of Mocha Rose.

Now this might not seem odd to the average reader, but I am not a pink person by any stretch of the imagination. Black? Yep. Dark greens and browns? Uh-huh. But never pink. Until now. It’s amazing to me, and stupendous to my daughters and friends. The room has taken on a glow of cream and rose, quilts on the bed, gently flowered drapes and soft green rugs. Sounds lovely, doesn’t it? And, why am I talking about it? Because I feel really light, which translates to feeling peaceful and good about life in general.

The last two months have been spent using the sun and moon’s energy of the Cleansing Tide to clean my house. I have cleaned out closets and drawers, basement and garage, desk and hard drive. I have also washed walls that weren’t freshly painted, washed windows, cleaned carpets and hardwoods. And during all that, I have been working on cleaning out the Inner house. My spiritual life has been in hibernation for a while and required some airing out. I do my best thinking when I’m busy, so I scrubbed and painted and considered what was feeding my soul and what was holding me back. When I tossed the sweeper bag into the trash, I focused on tossing out the outdated concepts of my relationship with Divinity. The Goddess has it together, it was me that was dragging my feet in the mud.

I can never thank my dearest friend enough for saying to me: “Maybe you need to see the light in Her face, and focus on that.”  It made me realize (once again, thank you very much) that we always have a choice. The world is not black or white but multicolored, rich in texture and gloriously grand. It’s all a matter of focus, and my focus has been in the shadows for a very long time.

Awareness is everything. Hiding behind pain and fear does nothing but create more pain and fear, and I deserve better. We all deserve better. It can be easy to forget the moments of joy that are ours by birthright. So my lesson is this. Don’t forget to watch what is happening around you. If your house is cluttered, it is reflecting something back to you; an Inner state of mind that might not be healthy. If the job stinks, there may be some hint that you are not following your heart. And if you feel lonely and unloved, could it be that you don’t love yourself?

This post is about the direct relationship between the outer and inner worlds. As above, so below reflects the concept that ‘as goes the universe, so goes our own little world.’ Ultimately, the only thing that means anything is love. Love yourself, and the world is yours.

Gratitude: Friday and every other day

I can hardly believe it’s only been four days since I’ve posted. Spring fever set in and I took on the major project of painting my bedroom–top to bottom. This meant that unhooking and moving my computer, among the myriad and sundry other things that this entails, threw me into a time warp. But it is done, and I’m only a day late for the one sure post that I’ve promised myself every week.

Feel free to join me in Gratitude Friday. Comment here, post on your own site and link, or just take a few minutes and be aware of the blessings in your life!

 

This week I am grateful for sunny and warm days in February; one coat paint that saves me mucho time; the scent of early spring that connects me with the Divine; good coffee; great friends; and the joy of simplicity.

Many Blessings!

Gratitude Friday

The other day I received a post from Terri Sonoda’s blog and all she really had to share was that she felt good. It made me smile, and when I really thought about it, it gave me a measure of peace. So I sent out my wish into the ethers. We need more of that. I need more of that.

I used to keep a gratitude journal, years ago when Sarah Ban Breathnach came out with Simple Abundance. Somehow I drifted away from that, but in the process of this Cleansing Season, I remembered again how good it made me feel, and how it changed my perspective on life. On most days, there is more to be grateful for than not.

‘Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow.’

-Melody Beady

So today I am starting Gratitude Friday. I have many blessings in my life, and it is important for my own growth to share them. It’s like this. Words are magick, and as I work on getting ready for the Spring Crossroads, planting and growth season, I am planting the seeds of peace, joy and success.

If you would like to join me, post your own gratitudes and link them here, add them to comments, or just take a few minutes to be aware of the blessings that you have experienced this week.

Gratitude Friday

  1. I am grateful for the humor and joy that Terri Sonoda gave me by just feeling good and sharing it!
  2. My wonderful and wild blogging friends.
  3. My family is healthy and whole…and so beautiful…
  4. I finally have a job that I absolutely love!!
  5. Winter was mild this year…easy on the bones!
  6. I have enough.

Many Blessings!

Selena

Resolutions

The Sun is setting a little later every day. In some parts of the country, blossoms are already peeking through. And today marks Candlemas/Imbolc, the Celebration of the Waxing Light. This is the time of year that I feel most like making resolutions.

My resolution for this coming year is “simplify”. Living simply, paring down excess, focusing on what matters most. Throughout the last month I started with my physical surroundings–letting go of things that no longer have any meaning. Clothes to women who need them so much more than I do with the blessings and hopes that they can move into a better and self empowered life; books that should be in the hands of those whose journey into spirituality is beginning; and anything that distracts me from my own journey as a writer and a priestess.

This also includes ‘thinking globally, living locally.’ For me this means learning more about the Land that I live on. This is the spot that I draw inspiration from. This is the place that the Goddess dwells, with those who live here. And this is the place that I connect through to my global home.

Coming into the Light of the year has meant a clearer vision of what it means to be…well, me. What I really believe and what I am no longer willing to submit to. Since late last summer, my soul has gone through a dark night. Wandering through the crevasses of experiences that leave scars, a crappy childhood, a bitter divorce and dealing with a relationship with a man that later murdered five people, I have discovered one simple thing. Those things are history, and only serve to teach me that I am more than the sum of my parts. It sounds so simple, right? Yea, I think so too. But those scars that we have from experiences run so much deeper that we are first aware of. You would think that at 56, I would be beyond simple lessons. Well, dear Ego, I wasn’t, and I still have a long way to go.

So, as part of my cleansing time, I am letting go of Twitter and Facebook. I have made so many new friends, and connected with many old ones. I want those people to know that I am still here and still welcome communications.

Hedge Wicket will remain. I enjoy posting and hope that others enjoy it too.

I wish you all a wonderful, light filled season.

 

New Year’s Resolution

The Dark of the Year is a time of cleansing and purification. For the most part, if feels wonderful, exhilarating and time for it. I’ve already begun my cleansing process; I used to call it spring cleaning. The closets are being organized, the kitchen shelves are cleared, and I’m anxiously waiting on the day I can wash windows and walls.

Window Wash

Lemon-Mint Window Wash:

The lemon juice and peppermint oil in this window wash formula discourages flies and other insects from perching on your windows. It works beautifully, leaving a streak-free clean that you’ll really appreciate.

Juice of 1 lemon

2 cups club soda
½ tsp. peppermint oil

1 tsp. corn starch

Mix all the ingredients together in a small bowl, using a spoon to blend them well. Then, pour into a plastic spray bottle. Shake well before using.

 

Wall Wash

Eucalyptus-Mint Disinfecting Soap:

This mild soap is great fro cleaning dishes, floors, stoves, sinks, and hands. The eucalyptus and mint are disinfectants that provide a fresh, ultra-clean scent. Any areas you wash with this soap will repel insects and flies – a particularly useful thing in late summer when it seems that flies decide our homes should be theirs.

5 cups grated castile soap

½ cup baking soda
1 tsp. borax

1 tsp. eucalyptus oil
6 cups hot peppermint tea, made with 6 tbsp. fresh peppermint or 8-12 tea bags

Place the castile soap in a 3-quart stainless steel saucepan and stir in the tea. Simmer very low for 15 minutes, stirring occasionally. Add the baking soda, borax, and eucalyptus oil. Stir well to blend all ingredients.

Store in a labeled plastic jug or squirt bottle, and shake before using. Can be safely used full strength, or diluted to make the product last longer.

(Thank you Phebe Durand for the recipes!)

 

As I scrub, clean and sweep away the detritus of the year past, I keep in mind that this is also the time of internal purification. Elbow grease and sweat are symbolic of the effort and stamina it takes to consider clearly what needs to be let go. At New Year’s so many people make new resolutions, goals to reach in the coming year. Consciously or subconsciously, new year’s resolutions are the beginning of the cleansing tide that flows with the magnetic forces that surround the earth, of which we are a part.

With my hands arm deep in the fresh scent of the scrub water, I consider what needs to go in my life. Weight? Yea, sure a little bit. Holey socks? Um-hmm. Fears, regrets, outdated beliefs? Absolutely. These are my new years’ resolutions. To dig a little deeper and root out those things that hold me back. I am a Wytch, after all, and my magick is strong. If I can’t work on myself, that how on earth can I help anyone else?
Be always at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each new year find you a better (wo)man.  ~Benjamin Franklin