Dear Mom

Dear Mom,

I learned more about you today than I ever have before. There were distant relatives that came out of nowhere to share pictures of your beautiful youth, and a large photo of grandpa’s church congregation with you and your brothers standing proudly beside your father.

Raised in a religious home, you were taught morals and ethics that were challenged during your marriage. And despite that, you managed to raise your three daughters the same way.  I just want you to know that you did a good job. You taught us patience and understanding, albeit the hard way, and we learned about hope when there was none.

I can remember that during leanest of years you managed to make sure we were fed and clothed, and I still  recall that little stuffed turtle that came on Christmas morning. It meant more than you ever realized. And the bad memories? Faded by forgiveness, tucked away to remind me that I am a strong woman; regardless.

Thanks, Mom. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am happy for you. The sadness and grief I feel is just for me.

I miss you.

Naomi Grace Steffy
1934 – September, 2012

 

 

Gratitude Friday

Now that the greenhouse season has slowed, we’re back to gratitude Friday.

Today I am grateful for friends, old and new, who have enriched my life–quite a lot lately.

***the surprisingly cooler day that has given us a respite from the heat

***a partner that holds on loosely and understands me completely

***an excellent hamburger, Seattle’s Best coffee, and chocolate :)

***and you!

Ahhh…derecho?

My last days at the greenhouse for the summer season were stinking HOT! After the big blow of 2012, the straight line winds clocked at 89, and the searing 104 degree temps, I am so ready for a siesta. That’s one hundred and four degrees in NW Ohio. O. My. Stars.  From Wikipedia***

A derecho (play /dəˈr/; Spanish pronunciation: [deˈɾetʃo]; day-RAY-cho) is a widespread, long-lived, straight-line windstorm that is associated with a fast-moving band of severe thunderstorms. Generally, derechos are convection-induced and take on a bow echo form of squall line, forming in an area of divergence in the upper levels of the troposphere, within a region of low-level warm air advection and rich low-level moisture. They travel quickly in the direction of movement of their associated storms, similar to an outflow boundary (gust front), except that the wind is sustained and increases in strength behind the front, generally exceeding hurricane-force. A warm-weather phenomenon, derechos occur mostly in summer, especially during June and July in the Northern Hemisphere, within areas of moderately strong instability and moderately strong vertical wind shear. They may occur at any time of the year and occur as frequently at night as during the daylight hours.

This storm tore up my little Midwestern town. Many people were without power for 6 days. I was lucky and only had to deal with three days without my guilty pleasure-air conditioning. We were lucky and had no damage.

Mother Nature has a mighty hand and I am reminded of her power when I see this:

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is just one of hundreds of trees that were shredded, had tops blown off, or completely uprooted by the powerful winds of June 29.

After driving around to help friends and neighbors and seeing the devastation, I come away with the renewed awareness of the tenuous hold we have on “normal”. I have never been one to put too much faith in ‘normal’, believing instead that each of us has a divine destiny and although they differ, all paths lead in the same direction. But this is the year that life may be altered on December 21 and watching the climate changes, freaky weather, and the atrocities that humans heap on each other, I begin to wonder if we don’t have some kind of tilt coming, a ‘hump day’ so to speak, when enough of us are ready for change to make the change happen.

That’s a good thing, if the majority is ready for peace. But what if it tilts the other way? What if the majority of us is tired of our neighbors eccentricities, our governments’ rants, our dying planet?  What if….?

I am grateful for ice cream, grandchildren’s messy kisses, friends that stick by me. What are you grateful for? What will you do on December 21, 2012? What majority do you belong to?

 

 

 

 

 

Going to the Mountain

A lot has been happening…lots of changes, all good! I went to visit my daughter for a few days in North Carolina, then on to visit my spiritual sister in western NC. Loved it so much I took my partner to see it; it looks like we may have found our new home! Exciting and scary.

Since we are in the Growing Tide (Spring Crossroads to Summer Solstice) I am focusing my thoughts and actions towards manifesting the perfect home in Black Mountain. When trying to produce such a complex thing, it takes a lot of visualization and clear thinking to let the gods know exactly what we are looking for. Size, cost, location; all are important to me. My partner picked the name from the map, saying it sounded good. She repeated it several times during our travels, unwittingly answering a subtle call from this little town outside of Asheville. So we drove there on a beautiful spring morning and were both instantly in love.

We toured the town and now have a good grip on the energy and vitality of the land. Stopping at a little bistro for lunch, our waitress just ‘happened’ to have recently moved there and during our conversation we discovered several options for finding a house. These little synchronicities are so important in following your bliss. Flowing with the river, dipping into the magickal realm and listening closely for clues is the secret to manifestation. It felt right, and so I did my part and set the ball in motion, so to speak. With realtors phone numbers, pictures, receipt from the bistro, and a sprig of dogwood laying on my altar, I let go and let the powers that be do their thing.

Moving is a very big deal, as most people know, especially when I am beyond the hump in my years. But the advantage of being older is that my faith is stronger. Years of experience  have taught me that allowing things to happen in due course is the best way to find a peaceful path. So! I am slowing packing, still letting go of unnecessary possessions, and waiting with joy for the next clue!

Many Blessings on the Path!

Spring Crossroads and New Beginnings

I recently returned from a life changing vacation. The first half was spent with my daughter. I haven’t seen her for months, as she moved to North Carolina last year, and the distance afforded me a new perspective. A full grown woman with children, she is going through a crisis of identity and self-power. She needs her mommy more than any other time in her life. Living so far away I cannot see her everyday, but I realized that there are still ways for me to support her, encourage her, and thank Goddess, be her friend.

The second half of my vacation was spent with my soul sister. I’ve known her for 30 years and even though we have lived a continent apart for most of it, we have kept in touch and shared a strong spiritual connection. We joined our first coven together, and after she moved away, our paths seemed to diverge. In reality, we have always traveled together, different perspectives creating double growth on both our parts. This last visit was a phenomenal revelation for both of us.

We have that sort of relationship of mutual respect, each allowing the other to speak fully and share ideas, thoughts and answers on equal ground. I have been in a spiritual crisis for a long time now, and when I need understanding with this issue, she is my go-to friend. So we talked about it. Who is my personal goddess? The one from Greece? The one from Thrace? The one from Ireland? The gnostic one? You can see how confusing it can be–and has been. But I can always trust that when my friend and I get together, a lot of stuff gets hashed out. One of the first things I was shocked to encounter was that maybe I wasn’t asking the right questions.

My sister and I love to have ‘conversations.’ This one carried an immense power and healing and the result is the reason for the change of this blog. Over the next few months I plan on going into some depth about my personal revelations.

I welcome comments, constructive dialogue and debate.

Many, Many Blessings!